RECENTLY, MY LOVE ASKED ME WHETHER I DIDN’T PREFER A DIVERSITY OF LOVERS.
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IN THIS POST, I AM ELABORATING ON MY RESPONSE:
IN THE PAST, WHEN I HAVE SHARED INTIMACY WITH MORE THAN ONE LOVER CONCURRENTLY, I HAVE FELT AMBIGUOUS ABOUT THIS… ON THE ONE HAND, I DELIGHT IN THE BEAUTY OF DIFFERENT WOMEN – THE VARIETY OF FORMS, FLAVOURS AND TEXTURES… ATHLETIC LOVERS WITH BROAD SHOULDERS AND STRONG BACKS; TALL, SLENDER WOMEN WITH NARROW HIPS, LONG SPINES, TIGHT BUTTOCKS AND SEEMINGLY ENDLESS LEGS; PETITE LOVERS WITH PERT BREASTS WHOSE GAZE TILTS UP TO MEET MINE AS I KISS THEM.
NO LESS HAVE I BEEN ENTRANCED BY THE INSIGHTS, PERSPECTIVES AND REFLECTIONS EACH HAS OFFERED – WISDOM WHICH HAS CALLED DIFFERENT ASPECTS OF MYSELF TO GROW AND BLOSSOM; INCISIVE OBSERVATIONS THAT HAVE PRUNED BACK ASPECTS THAT STIFLE THIS GROWTH.
AND WITH THIS, THERE HAS ALSO BEEN A SENSE OF DISSONANCE AT THE UNFAMILIAR – THE SHAPES AND CURVES, THE FRAGRANCE OF HAIR, SKIN AND SWEAT, THE TONE OF VOICE… OF RECOGNISING EACH ONE AS DIFFERENT, AND OF NEEDING TO TUNE IN WITH CLEAR, FRESH EYES, TO FEEL INTO WHAT PLEASES, WHERE AND HOW EACH WANTS TO BE SEEN, TOUCHED, TASTED.
THERE HAS ALSO BEEN A SENSE OF TRANSGRESSION, OF BREAKING RULES, NEGLECTING NORMS, SEEDING HEARTBREAK – A SENSE OF IMMINENT CENSURE, CASTIGATION, AND LOSS.
AND AS A CONSEQUENCE OF THIS FRAGILITY AND TRANSIENCE, I HAVE ALSO EXPERIENCED ABANDONMENT, DECEPTION AND REJECTION WHICH HAS SHAKEN MY NERVOUS SYSTEM TO THE CORE.
THIS HAS BROUGHT A DEEP RESPECT FOR THE NEED FOR SAFETY IN OUR RELATING TO ALLOW OUR NERVOUS SYSTEMS TO TRULY RELAX, UNWIND AND HEAL.ULTIMATELY, THIS DEEP SENSE OF TRUST, SAFETY AND RELAXATION IS WHAT MOST OF US NEED TO BE ABLE TO DEEPLY OPEN TO INTIMACY, TO REVEAL THE HIDDEN, TO ALLOW OURSELVES TO EXPERIENCE THE TRANSCENDENT BLISS OF MELTING AND MERGING, TO ENTER AND BE ENTERED BY THE BELOVED.
THIS DEPTH AND EXPANSIVE OPENING AND DEVOTION WITH A LOVING CONSORT, TO ME, HAS BECOME MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE THRILLING FEAST OF POSSIBILITIES OFFERED BY TASTING MANY DIFFERENT LOVES BRIEFLY.
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