RECENTLY, MY #BELOVED REFLECTED TO ME THE NEED TO STEP INTO MY ROLE AS A #GUIDE AND #ELDER.
IN NOT OWNING MY #AGE , #KNOWLEDGE AND EXPERIENCE, I HAVE OFTEN NOT ACKNOWLEDGED THE DIFFERENCE IN CAPACITY BETWEEN MYSELF AND YOUNGER SEEKERS. AS A RESULT, I HAVE ALLOWED MYSELF TO BECOME INFATUATED WITH THE POTENTIAL OF YOUNG, AWAKENING YOGINS AND YOGINIS, TREATING THEM AS PEER AND POTENTIAL CONSORT, PROJECTING MY DESIRES UPON THEM AND BLINDING MYSELF TO THEIR #TRUTH .
THIS HAS PLACED A BURDEN OF EXPECTATION UPON THEM, AND HAS EXPOSED ME AND THEM TO #DISILLUSIONMENT AND #HEARTBREAK. THERE IS A NATURAL #EROTICISM BETWEEN OLDER AND YOUNGER SEEKERS, A FASCINATION AND #ATTRACTION ROOTED IN DEEPLY ENTANGLED AND COMPLEMENTARY PATTERNS ENTAILING UNRESOLVED CHILDHOOD ATTACHMENT TRAUMAS, EVOLUTIONARY PROGRAMMING, ANCESTRAL TRACES, PSYCHOLOGICALLY-ROOTED DESIRE FOR YOUTH AND VITALITY. THIS CARRIES AN ENORMOUS CHARGE OF #KUNDALINI ENERGY WHICH WANTS TO MOVE IN SERVICE TO EXPANSION AND SPIRITUAL EVOLUTION.
IN SEEKING A COMPASSIONATE AND TRUTHFUL WAY TO NAVIGATE THIS EROTICISM, I AM LEARNING TO UNTANGLE DIFFERENT STRANDS OF LOVE AND DESIRE
– THE #LOVE AND #LONGING FOR THE #GURU PRINCIPLE, THE #DAKINI EMBODIMENT OF #TRUTH AND #LIBERATION
– THE LOVE FOR AN ABSENT OR DISTANT #PARENT- THE LOVE FOR A TEACHER AND GUIDE WHO HAS TRAVELED THE PATH FURTHER
– THE LOVE FOR A #CONSORT WHO IS A PEER AND CAN MEET ME ON COMMON GROUND
– THE LOVE FOR A DHARMA FRIEND AND KALYANAMITRA
– THE LOVE FOR A #DEVOTEE AND #STUDENT
– THE LOVE FOR AN ERRANT CHILD
EACH REQUIRES DIFFERENT HOLDING AND CARE, EACH PERMITS DIFFERENT FREEDOM OF PLAY.
AS I RECOGNIZE MORE FULLY MY OWN CAPABILITIES AND LIMITS, I AM ABLE TO STEP WITH GREATER CLARITY AND CONFIDENCE INTO THE ROLE OF THE TEACHER THAT I FEEL SUCH A STRONG CALLING TO FOLLOW, TO OFFER INSIGHT AND GUIDANCE TO YOUNGER #TANTRIKAS #MINDFUL OF #NATURAL #DHARMA
#TANTRA #YOGA #VAJRAYANA #KARMA #SHAKTI